Just wanted to clue in anyone who cares that I still am hating radiation and what it did to my body.
I mean, who's kidding who... I sort of did it to myself today. But still.
Here is my diet for the day: ("diet" being a word I use loosely ... we all know that I'm never actually on one)
Breakfast: whole wheat toast with avocado
Snack: peanut granola bar (the salty & sweet kind - yum!)
Lunch: Leftover asparagus (oven roasted with garlic... delish!)
Snack: celery with peanut butter and a cheese stick
Dinner: salad and bran muffins (stupid me) at Sweet Tomatoes
Dessert: ice cream cake (Thank you, Rook, for being born 11 years ago)
So, yeah. That was sort of a lot of fiber. I know, that was a lot of plants and grains to cram into one body today. But still... I'm here to tell you that, two years ago, I could have eaten all of that and I would have woken up the next morning and pooped at 7:00 and gone about my business and all would have been well with the world.
Not now.
Now, I started getting stomach cramps at about 4:00 this afternoon and it's just gone downhill from there.
I am not actually sick. I do not have a stomach bug coming on. Oh, no. I just had my guts radiated in the summer of 2010 and I'm still paying a price.
You know, I have never loved what radiation did to my body. I repeat, I have never loved it. But up until last week, I could just roll my eyes and think "darn that radiation... someday this will get better". Now, I still like to think that it'll get better (and on almost every level, it really has) - but I'm still Bitter Bob that I went through 25 rounds of radiation that turned me into a stupid poop machine. It's irritating that my body doesn't know how to deal with what I put into it - some days more than others.
I feel a little like I need to write myself a new version of the Serenity Prayer.
I mean, who's kidding who... I sort of did it to myself today. But still.
Here is my diet for the day: ("diet" being a word I use loosely ... we all know that I'm never actually on one)
Breakfast: whole wheat toast with avocado
Snack: peanut granola bar (the salty & sweet kind - yum!)
Lunch: Leftover asparagus (oven roasted with garlic... delish!)
Snack: celery with peanut butter and a cheese stick
Dinner: salad and bran muffins (stupid me) at Sweet Tomatoes
Dessert: ice cream cake (Thank you, Rook, for being born 11 years ago)
So, yeah. That was sort of a lot of fiber. I know, that was a lot of plants and grains to cram into one body today. But still... I'm here to tell you that, two years ago, I could have eaten all of that and I would have woken up the next morning and pooped at 7:00 and gone about my business and all would have been well with the world.
Not now.
Now, I started getting stomach cramps at about 4:00 this afternoon and it's just gone downhill from there.
I am not actually sick. I do not have a stomach bug coming on. Oh, no. I just had my guts radiated in the summer of 2010 and I'm still paying a price.
You know, I have never loved what radiation did to my body. I repeat, I have never loved it. But up until last week, I could just roll my eyes and think "darn that radiation... someday this will get better". Now, I still like to think that it'll get better (and on almost every level, it really has) - but I'm still Bitter Bob that I went through 25 rounds of radiation that turned me into a stupid poop machine. It's irritating that my body doesn't know how to deal with what I put into it - some days more than others.
I feel a little like I need to write myself a new version of the Serenity Prayer.
God grant my stomach the ability to digest the things I ingest
The comfort to do so painlessly
And (maybe) a desire to eat a more balanced diet
Is that too sacrilegious? I'm too tired to be sure (or care, frankly). Either way, it's my new mantra.
